I FEEL LIKE POURING MY THOUGHTS OUT AGAIN. 8u
I was just thinking about the day me and Nadine met..come to think of it, none of you know the story. Whenever I think about it I get all happy and stupid aaaa.
I figured I'd just type it all out to make you guys go "awww"
Bout a year and a half ago while I was still in high school I went to art club for the first or second time after school. It's a little fun get together in the artroom where you just..chill and draw or whatever lol. o3o
So I was just sitting at a table being a derpfuck with my friend Sedona. We were just drawing and stuff..
THEN THIS CHICK SITS NEXT TO ME AND IS LIKE...
"ohey I'm Nadine and uh I like your drawing :3"
and I was all *blushyface* and thinking "um. thank you random hot stranger asian chick<3 :'D"
I said Thank you,
Then about 5 minutes later, she got up and sat across from me. aaand she randomly started crying. I felt bad for her, but being the stupid ass I am I just sat there awkwardly instead of trying to comfort her. I thought I'd scare her away >~< I'm not good at having human contact with hot stranger chicks.
I saw her friends comforting her, then she seemed to feel better 10 minutes later.
Another hour passed, and I got up to leave. As I was walking to the door, I approached a table she was sitting on. She noticed I was leaving and asked me for a hug. My heart started racing, and I was all awkward like "oh. oh..ohohwjhvjfdv okay ;u;" and just hugging her made me feel so warm and happy inside..I didn't even know this girl..we exchanged about 5 words to each other and I was already crushing on this person? I'M SUCH A LADY WHORE AAA but no really just hugging her made my night..
Let me just say, I didn't even know if she was into girls or not..
That same night, I found her Facebook account by searching her first name because I'm a fucking creep. She accepted right away, so I stalked her profile.
I squeaked outloud when I read "Interested In: Women"
Seriously? what are the fucking odds of your crush who just so happens to be the most beautiful girl you've ever seen being a lesbian..I flipped out for a while, then looked at myself.
So many flaws..so much ugly, while she's so perfect..I'm a freshman, she's a sophomore..I'm way out of her league..I stopped myself from getting my hopes up. I'd never win her heart with my awkward and annoying as fuck personality. I tried to forget about her..but I couldn't. There was just something about her..I usually don't fall for someone that easily. Infact, I'm EXTREMELY picky when it comes to girls, and considering dating someone. This was new to me..
Around 2 days later, I got a Facebook notification from her. She had commented on one of my AppleDash MLP:FiM pictures. We kept commenting back to each other for a while, and that was our first actual conversation. I kept thinking to myself "holyshit this girl is so sweet, I just want to hug her forever and ever and aaaa"
The next day at school during lunch time, she walked over to me and said hello. She gave me a hug and then turned around to go buy her lunch. I said "Wait!" and ran after her wondering why the actual fuck I said that...then I just blurted out the first thing that popped into my head. "...You want a soda?" nice move AJ you faggot. She gave me an akward look and said "uhh sure? :'D" so I ran over to the vending machine and bought her a Pepsi. Wow I'm pathetic.
I gave it to her and she smiled and thanked me. I felt really stupid, but just looking at her smile made me feel a bit better.
Later that night when I got home, she thanked me again for the soda on Facebook. She said she wanted to repay me for the soda by buying me ice cream in the morning. It took a while to convince me to accept it. XD We then started talking about random things, and had my friend Sedona join in. We exchanged over 400 replies that night. It was amazing, lots of laughter, and I even cried at one point.
She mentioned wanting to wear my favorite Monster Energy hat the next day, I found it adorable and told her I'd let her borrow it as long as she wanted. Mind you, I never let ANYONE wear my hat. I have this thing about my hats where I hate when other people even touch them..but for her, I had absolutely no issue with it.
The next day, (Friday) she bought me ice cream. A Recee's peanutbutter bar, It was delicious. vov
I gave her my hat and let her wear one of my fingerless gloves as well. She let me wear her studded bracelett and bands in return. It made me so happy >w<
I also introduced her to the famous "planking" meme. We planked on a lot of random things, and people gave us weird looks. It was just the most romantic moment ever. //shot
Then the weekend showed up. Two whole days without seeing my new best friend..I sat pathetically in my room talking to her on Facebook the whole weekend. She claimed to be bored and wanting to draw, but she didn't know what to draw. So I sent her a picture of Rainbow Dash and asked her to draw her for me. vuv ♥ She thought it was adorable, and drew her with sharpie markers. She took a picture of the drawing and posted it to Facebook. It was so adorable I just aaa ;w; <3 It made me so happy~
On Sunday, she asked me if I wanted to hang out and possibly spend the night at her house next weekend.
I thought to myself "ohmigoshh yesyesyess omgyes." and ran to the living room to ask my mom. "OK THERE'S THIS GIRL AND SHE'S REALLY NICE AND STUFF AND WE JUST MET LIKE A WEEK AGO AND WE'RE ALREADY FRIENDS AND AND CAN I STAY OVER AT HER HOUSE NEXT WEEKEND PLEASEOMG..?!" My mom said "sure." I got so extremely excited and ran back to my room to tell her yes. So it was officially planned.
The whole week during school, we went everywhere with each other. (Besides our classes of course..we had none together.) We were constantly clinging to each other, and hugging and whispering ..it was just amazing. I was in love. Too late to turn back..why would I want to? Though little did I know she felt the same way about me.
I had asked her if she had a DeviantART page, and I watched her.
I commented on her page with a link to the song "Can't Stand It" by NeverShoutNever. That became our song instanly..we still sing it to each other to this day. So many wonderful memories within that song..
Well, It was finally Friday. She had drawn me another Rainbow Dash, a banner. It was one of the cutest gifts I'd ever recieved, she understood my obsession with that gay ass pony. ♥ at the end of the day, I took the bus to West Sedona with her. We walked around town for a bit and shopped, ate Subway and just chilled. XP We also bought cookie mix >u>
When we got to her house, we started baking cookies. My mom texted me asking what we were doing, and I sent her a picture of us baking. It was the first picture of us together, and I still have it. <3 (I think I'll post it later) Later that night around 8:00pm, we went to the school football game together.
I technically count this as our first date..even though we hadn't admitted our feelings towards each other yet. School football game..doesn't sound very romantic..which is why we ditched it and chilled in the baseball field. We spent 20 minutes standing in one spot just hugging under the moon, and telling each other "You're so beautiful.." back and forth.
We moved into this little roofed area where the bleachers are. We hid in there just hugging each other and barely saying any words..only listening to the sounds of our hearts beating fast.
She started crying. It scared me..I wondered if I had done something to upset her, but turns out..she just felt so happy and safe, to be in someones arms for so long..giving her that feeling made me feel incredible.
I wanted to lean in and kiss her..so badly..but I was afraid of making her feel uncomfortable..
We then went home, and went to bed. The whole night, we held each other in our arms, falling asleep to the sounds of our hearts beating. Mine was beating for her.
The next morning, we woke up and watched a couple movies in the living room.
That was when she admitted her feelings for me..and she asked me to be hers.
I was in shock..I was nervous..I was wondering if it was real..
I thought "how could anyone love me..." I didn't want to risk another broken heart..I told her to give me a little time.
Wow I felt like an asshole..
I was in love with her..why did I want to wait? I was just doing what my heart told me to do..
About a week and a half later of insane thinking, on October 19th at 8:21pm, I finally gave her my answer.
Of course, I said yes. I didn't regret it at all..<3
Wow it felt so intense being in a relationship off the internet..in a good way of course. To feel someone's warmth, to hold their hand, to be able to whisper in their ear with those three beautiful words, was just the best gift I had ever recieved.
It's been 14 months now. A year and two months of us being together. We've had very rough times, even had a short break up at one point. But just couldn't stay mad at each other..we couldn't be seperated. We're soul mates..meant to be together for eternity. We have future plans together, and want to get married.
I am so madly in love with this human being..I dedicate my life to her, and that won't ever change..no matter what. She is my world. I can't, and I won't live without her.
I love you Nadine Westerveld. With every fiber in my body. Journal skin by ~vanillaa